Back in here - Fadi Fairy Tales

Hello, I am back to my nasty habit of ignoring this place (my blog)! Again, it seems I only get in here whenever I experience a dramatic change in the Adrenalin level in my blood, whether it's up or down.

I have no idea why I am writing this but I am not in the perfect mood at the moment & I am pissed off of: (1) the way I deal with the ever changing inputs around me (2) because I always put so much effort in the wrong place (3) I think I open up a lot which always gets back (to, on, aint sure!) me! (4) I think I bite off more than I can chew (5) Finally, I need to work for 40 hours to finish this bloody mold design that I could hardly find time to look at it lately ! God help me. MT had enough with me and I need to finish this one ASAP.

Okay , do I sound complaining ? hah?

I am doing my best *not* to complain here .

Let me explain: 28 months ago, I signed up for a private diary so to keep a record of the good things that happened to me then , I used to communicate a lot of things but only to those who were close enough and targeted to know what was going around in my life. I also used to complain a lot and speak out about the things that I consider so personal in my life , but when I turned to this blog, I decided that I will do my best not to complain about anything although I can write about whatever comes to my mind.

Writing in a diary started when I had a sudden and abnormal rise in the Adrenaline level in my blood in December 2003, back then, my whole life changed dramatically and It sounded that I was the luckiest guy around; But apparently, if you ever read my diary, you may realize that each time I wrote an entry it was about a bottle neck situation I ran my self into in a way or another, whether personal or other..

Each time I read an old entry of mine; I just recall how tough those days were to me. But, when I take a look at who I was at this point two years ago, and who I am now I just calm down quite a bit because the difference is so huge. Let me tell you: Excluding the personal part of my diary, in January 2004 it was "hmm, who and what kind of work I want to do", but now , it's more like "Eh, I would've done better if I had some control over myself"… inshallah I wil learn the lesson this time.

Lets see , I figured out that I have messed around with the firewall settings on my computer at home yesterday and now I can't use my computer to browse the internet safely unless I set it up again : (
You won't get surprised reading that if you know me in person.. So it seems that Fadi will have to wait until he meets a nice young person who can fix it for him because his foolish pride will not allow him to ask for any help from all the adults around him!!

Crying over you Mohammad .. you were always there when I needed you .. sighs

Take care everybody

UPDATE: February 28, 7:40 pm

This blog doesn't interest anybody anymore ..